So, I finished SPM.
My feelings?
I really don't know.
Yes, I'm happy that half of a burden on my shoulder lifted.
But, to be honest, I feel nothing.
After my last paper, I didn't feel the 'MERDEKA' vibe at all.
Instead, all I can think of back then was;
"What the things I should do after SPM?"
I tried to find a job, but mostly the place where I wanted to get a job from are already full. I don't feel like watching movies or tv shows at all of the sudden. I feel so lazy at the same time, hyper.
Sure, I'll get my driver's licence but I not yet applied. Sure, I can sleep but, I don't feel like it.
I'm honestly bored and its only one day after SPM!!
Maybe, I'm just scared of my SPM result. And it's haunting me even before SPM started.
I'm afraid that my result is not good enough. I'm afraid that I couldn't go the Uni of my choice. It's creeping me out so immensely that the horrified feeling I can feel it crawling in my veins.
Oh, crap.
I honestly hate feel this kind of anxiety.
I just hope the scared feeling go away.
I just want to fill this six months gap spending time with my friends, earn some money, watch movies/tv shows and read books, and PLKN.
I'm so scared...
-AMNI ( budak merdeka ni)
I honestly hate feel this kind of anxiety.
I just hope the scared feeling go away.
I just want to fill this six months gap spending time with my friends, earn some money, watch movies/tv shows and read books, and PLKN.
I'm so scared...
-AMNI ( budak merdeka ni)
