So, I finished SPM.

My feelings?

I really don't know.

Yes, I'm happy that half of a burden on my shoulder lifted.

But, to be honest, I feel nothing.

After my last paper, I didn't feel the 'MERDEKA' vibe at all.

Instead, all I can think of back then was;

"What the things I should do after SPM?"

I tried to find a job, but mostly the place where I wanted to get a job from are already full. I don't feel like watching movies or tv shows at all of the sudden. I feel so lazy at the same time, hyper.

Sure, I'll get my driver's licence but I not yet applied. Sure, I can sleep but, I don't feel like it.

I'm honestly bored and its only one day after SPM!!

Oh, crap.

I honestly hate feel this kind of anxiety.
I just hope the scared feeling go away.
I just want to fill this six months gap spending time with my friends, earn some money, watch movies/tv shows and read books, and PLKN.

I'm so scared...

-AMNI ( budak merdeka ni)