I got my SPM result today.

I'm actually really satisfied about it.

Okay, I know it is a result that shouldn't been brag about BUT I'M BRAGGING ABOUT IT.

I think that I DESERVED to get that result.

Clearly, not because I got an excellent result.

I know my limit. I'm not smart. When it comes to maths, I sucks so BAD.

But, looking back at last year, I was pathetically really depressed. I had social issues. I couldn't sleep well, or eat well and I couldn't study well.

Looking back at my trial result, let me just say, my trial result I got no A's. I failed at three of my elective subjects. My History and BM score flaunted. My Math was worst. I didn't get and A for my English.

And it got me feeling depressed even more.

I studied for BM so hard, because I really wanted to ace my mother tongue. I studied Math, especially in paper 2. I studied History like crazy. I studied English more that any subjects. I studied Physics because I could at least pass this subject.

I'm a very anxious person. I really want my English and History to get A's. The two subjects are favourite subjects.

My best friend and I just hoped at least, we will get 2A's for SPM.

And,

Alhamdulillah, we got better than that.

I know some of you guys are sad with your result and keep questioning why I'm not, because, logically, thinking back, I was in the lowest. ranking grades score in my class. I was not good at Maths nor Chemistry or even Engineering.

And I know that. I tried really hard for my English, when trial came and I got B for it, I really felt like crying and since then I studied really hard because English is my passion. I love languages, English is my favourite. History too, god, I love history. That subject was never boring to me. 

And Maths, I hoped I pass in average scale, And I did.

The thing is, your result doesn't define who you are. Maybe you result is bad, but look at the bright side, Allah have better plans for you. Maybe not now, but in the future.

You'll never know God's plans.

Go have tea, okay?

- Amni