Since last year, I always thought about writing a new story at Wattpad.

I wrote a new story every year since I was fourteen to train myself to write.

Majority of them are fanfics and one of them is my own characters story.

Since I finished writing Perfect and Pathetic in January, I get a lot of time in my hands.

And I think it's time.

My friends wanted me to write a Luke Hemmings' fan fic that I dreamt about but writing fanfic is actually really hard.

Just because  in fanfic(s), the characters that you writing aren't yours and some of they are real people and if you do anything wrong or out of character, the fans wouldn't read it. And cheesiness in fanfics are so annoying if it happen often.

I wrote a 1D fanfic once, you know the drill.

Some of the reader dislike the way I wrote on Louis and they sometimes commented how they dislike my writing.

It hurts for me to read their give negative comments.
So after thinking for few months, I will not going to write a Luke Hemmings's fanfic this year.

I will write my own story. My own plot. My own characters.
And my new story, I named it;


Those Busted Lips



Summary; 

       Kai Asher is the King of Oakcastle's High Drama Club. He has a crazy drunk woman as a mother. A workaholic doctor for a dad. Kai Asher's only friend is Ryan Kang, the star quarterback. Kai Asher is utterly in love with his girlfriend, Chloe Sanders. Kai Asher is invincible. Kai Asher is mean. Kai Asher is egoistic. Nobody ever dares to get near him. Unless it is Alaska Summers.

     Alaska Summers cannot labeled anything but 'odd'. She has crazy hair, crazy style, mysterious, and she is kind, but she isn't nice.
  

Kai hates Alaska. She can't stop bugging him. She's annoying, weird as shit and real.  
    

Alaska Summers is not popular or even an outcast. She is odd, sure, but without her, Kai wouldn't help his mom to get better. Kai will not know the truth. It may shock him, it may break him, too. The truth hurts, but it is better than being lie to.
 
Maybe with Alaska odd friendship with him, Kai will learn something.

   A story about Kai Asher's journey trough love, family, friendship and true meaning you can still stand up high, even everything around you breaks you.

That's basically my idea on the story.




Good or not?

But,
I haven't post the story on Wattpad, yet.
I still need time and it isn't ready.
I'm still need time to write the chapters and re-adjust the plot.
But, now, I think it's going well.


I'll inform you guys if I post the story.

- Amni

And, oh!
Here's some of the dialogue;


"You know why I'm so sad about this?"

"Why?"

"Because I saw it coming and I kept denying it, I thought that she's different. Because I thought, under her beautiful face, she was nice and honest. But, eventually, she fucked me up."

I'm single because nobody can beat my fictional boyfriends.

2. Augustus Waters from The Fault in Our Stars



Every part of the book and the movie are mostly sad but the PRE-FUNERAL part broke me to million pieces and I couldn't stop myself for crying so damn hard while reading the book and watching the movie.

That was the pain I felt when I love and lost Augustus Waters.


Before we get to no.1,
here some characters that I want to give credit to;

Sirius Black from The Harry Potter series,
who was there for me when I was young and
was the first fictional character that I love;

I got my SPM result today.

I'm actually really satisfied about it.

Okay, I know it is a result that shouldn't been brag about BUT I'M BRAGGING ABOUT IT.

I think that I DESERVED to get that result.

Clearly, not because I got an excellent result.

I know my limit. I'm not smart. When it comes to maths, I sucks so BAD.

But, looking back at last year, I was pathetically really depressed. I had social issues. I couldn't sleep well, or eat well and I couldn't study well.

Looking back at my trial result, let me just say, my trial result I got no A's. I failed at three of my elective subjects. My History and BM score flaunted. My Math was worst. I didn't get and A for my English.

And it got me feeling depressed even more.

I studied for BM so hard, because I really wanted to ace my mother tongue. I studied Math, especially in paper 2. I studied History like crazy. I studied English more that any subjects. I studied Physics because I could at least pass this subject.

I'm a very anxious person. I really want my English and History to get A's. The two subjects are favourite subjects.

My best friend and I just hoped at least, we will get 2A's for SPM.

And,

Alhamdulillah, we got better than that.

I know some of you guys are sad with your result and keep questioning why I'm not, because, logically, thinking back, I was in the lowest. ranking grades score in my class. I was not good at Maths nor Chemistry or even Engineering.

And I know that. I tried really hard for my English, when trial came and I got B for it, I really felt like crying and since then I studied really hard because English is my passion. I love languages, English is my favourite. History too, god, I love history. That subject was never boring to me. 

And Maths, I hoped I pass in average scale, And I did.

The thing is, your result doesn't define who you are. Maybe you result is bad, but look at the bright side, Allah have better plans for you. Maybe not now, but in the future.

You'll never know God's plans.

Go have tea, okay?

- Amni

A dedication to all girls;

- You don't have to be skinny to be pretty. Nor thighs gap, nor seen collarbones. 

- You don't have to be curvy to be pretty either.

- You're pretty without make up.

-You're pretty with make up.

- Your grades doesn't define how smart you are.

- Wear dark lipstick if you want to.

- Wear nail polish if you want to.

- Colour your hair if you want to.

- It's okay for you to be girly.

-It's okay for you to be a little boyish.

- Labels are just labels.

- Liking boy bands and kpop doesn't mean you have bad taste on music.

- Like Kpop if you want to. Fall in love with Kpop idols if you want to. Screw haters.

- Like indie bands if you want to, screw people if they say that you're just being a poser.

- Read books, it helps calm your mind.

- If you want that cute clothes, just buy it.

- Drink tea to sooth your body (I recommend in evenings)

- Drink coffee if you think it wakes you up.

- If you want to loose weight, just remember that you have to loose weight to be healthy, not because someone asked you to.

- Eat

- Eat

- Eat

- Be independent. Don't always hope for a guy to be there support you.

- It's okay if you don't have a boyfriend.

- It's okay if you have a boyfriend.

- Don't be arrogant to other girls that aren't pretty/smart/talented than you.

- Go have a date with your boyfriend, but never ever neglected you friends.

- Go watch a movie while eating food in front of your laptop.

- Go out with your best friends, and talk with them about everything.

- You're not the only one that have problems .

- Learn new things, weather if it's a make up tutorial or the history of the World Wars

- If you're boyfriend is cheating on you, he's not worth it for you be back together with him.

- You're free to have your own opinions and thoughts, don't let boys think otherwise

- If a boy is being a dick to you, kick his ass. Or, just say something sassy to him so he shut up.

- Don't let boys define you for who you are.

- Speak for yourself, your gender, you family and your religion.

- If other girl is being mean to you, just remember that she's a human, all humans are bunch of screwed ups.

- Cry if you want to, let it out. Crying doesn't mean that you're weak.

- People are going to judge you no matter what.

- It's okay if you have high tastes on men.

- It's okay if you don't have tastes on men.

- It's okay to be different

- Every girl hates some parts of their body, you're not alone

- There's no such thing as prince charming. There's no night and shining armor to come and rescue you.

- The only person who can help you, is yourself.

- Get help if you're feeling depressed.

- Cutting IS NOT a fashion statement.

- Suicide IS NOT a thing to romanticize.

- Avoid fuckboys 2K15

And,

Be yourself.

And you'e going to be okay.

- Amni